Abuse Hides in the Dark. Turn on Your Light.

About Relationship Abuse


  • The Good Stuff

    “Releasing and healing parental and spousal emotional abuse and sexual abuse will do more for improving your diet and life than just about anything else.” ~from How To Naturally Beat Metabolic Syndrome I believe that statement is true (although I’m not spending money on the diet the site promotes!). As I unwrap layers and years of

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  • In Your Heart of Hearts, You Know You’re Leaving

    Understanding is not what I need, and it’s not what I need to give. “Understanding” has super-glued my heart and mind to a mad man, and “understanding” will doom my children to repeating my loop.

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  • Work to Undo

    I’ve got two boys that are going to be their own men in a few short years. I have a lot of work to undo. And hey – if you have a second, send a prayer or some positive thoughts to whomever or wherever you send them, for me and my family, please. I am…

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  • Resisting Persuasion

    Resisting Persuasion

    WHAT? I asked myself why “resisting persuasion” and “verbal abuse tactics” were one and the same. The only logical explanation that I can currently come up with is that he uses these tactics because he feels that I am trying to persuade HIM into thinking or doing something that he doesn’t want to do.

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  • I See the Best in You

    And I remember that he paused, maybe only for half a second, but as if he realized how crazy this argument was. As if, in that half second, he came face to face with the realization that he was behaving erratically and irrationally.

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  • Why Can’t I Just LEAVE?

    Why Can’t I Just LEAVE?

    Reasons You Might Stay I wrote a post on my other blog that answers this question. Here’s a portion of it. “So many people beat themselves up over the question “Why can’t I just leave?” Do you want the easy answer? You aren’t ready to leave yet. “You “Notice I said fill in your reason

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  • Gaslighting Abuse Means War for My Heart & Mind

    Gaslighting Abuse Means War for My Heart & Mind

    Perhaps I am so important to him that he feels we should be as one mind. Unfortunately, this thought seems to translate into we should be of his mind and “my mind should disappear and stop causing so many problems.

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  • Hostile Take-Over

    Hostile Take-Over

    Abuse of any sort is a hostile takeover. He’s there, everywhere you turn, every thought you think must first go through the filter “Is it okay to do this? Is it okay to say this? Am I going to start trouble if I go ahead with this?” It’s enough to make the sanest person crazy.

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  • Sex and Emotional Abuse

    Sex and Emotional Abuse

    Today the following entry amazes me. I wrote the truth. I drew the truth. My unconscious mind knew he abused me and I knew I walked a dark path. But I went down it anyway. I didn’t know anything about emotional abuse. I wish someone had told me when I was young. From 1992 Journal Entry: “Maybe

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  • Letting Go of Teen’s Choices After He’s Lived with Domestic Violence

    Letting Go of Teen’s Choices After He’s Lived with Domestic Violence

    However, I am entirely certain that letting go is the right thing to do. I must allow Marc to make his own choices and then face the consequences of those choices.

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