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During My Abusive Marriage


  • Emotions After Leaving Your Abuser

    Emotions After Leaving Your Abuser

    Escaping Abuse Is More Than Leaving Escaping an abusive relationship involves more than having a safety plan and walking out the door. In addition to the logistical planning, you also must plan for some confusing emotions after leaving your abuser. The loaded emotions create a minefield that my therapist didn’t prepare me for. But I…

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  • Can You Be Financially Abused If You Have Money?

    Can You Be Financially Abused If You Have Money?

    You can be financially abused even if you earn your own money or have access to family funds. Financial abuse is more than you may think.

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  • My Abusive Marriage Recap

    My Abusive Marriage Recap

    While reorganizing this website, I came across some pages that don’t fit the site any longer. But I didn’t want to get rid of their brief synopses of the abuse suffered through the years. So I thought I’d add them to a brand new page and see if brevity works as well as a deep…

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  • The Page You’re Looking For …

    The Page You’re Looking For …

    Is Now Part of A Book by Kellie Jo Holly You can find free book excerpts by clicking “Book Excerpts”, downloading a preview, or visiting amazon.com to buy now. Are you being abused? Gain clarity, realize you are not crazy, and find out the common threads of abuse through a gripping tell-all account of an…

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  • #TheDayItStarted

    Red Door Productions introduces #TheDayItStarted as a prompt for abuse victims to tell about their earliest memory of domestic abuse.

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  • Explained Myself to End Verbal Abuse

    Explained Myself to End Verbal Abuse

    He knows what he is doing. There is no empathy for “fucking whores” & he redirects my pain to the business of being married. Insurance & meaningless emails.

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  • Living in My Abusive Marriage

    Living in My Abusive Marriage

    Living with abuse is horrible. I wish I could go back to the days when I thought I was a bad person or mentally ill. At least then I only had to fix myself.

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  • Received Counseling from the Army’s Morale Welfare and Recreation Program

    Received Counseling from the Army’s Morale Welfare and Recreation Program

    If you press charges and go to court and your military spouse is found guilty, you’ll receive counseling and other services and the soldier will most likely receive a Dishonorable Discharge. If the soldier is found guilty of domestic violence in court, victims of domestic violence qualify for Transitional Compensation (Financial). In my case, that…

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  • ‘You Hate Men!’ Is Diversion . . . and Retraumatization

    ‘You Hate Men!’ Is Diversion . . . and Retraumatization

    Telling me that my rape is the source of our problems is a diversion. It turns me away from whatever Will is doing and causes me to examine myself. By blaming my past for our current problems is also wrong. Will blames me for our problems without taking any responsibility for his behavior.

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  • Coming Apart – Losing Personal Boundaries

    Coming Apart – Losing Personal Boundaries

    I laid bare the last protected areas of my soul in hope that he could understand me. I just knew if he understood me, the arguments would end.

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