Abuse Hides in the Dark. Turn on Your Light.

About Relationship Abuse


  • Mr. Nice Guy

    Mr. Nice Guy

    One of the hardest parts of living in this abusive situation is knowing that “Mr. Nice Guy” will be replaced by “the other one” – the guy that is angry, loud, mean, insulting, and abusive. I’ve learned that by switching back and forth at will, my abuser successfully keeps me in a state of alert.…

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  • I Respect Him Less

    I Respect Him Less

    It made me wonder why Marc would react so respectfully when his dad used harsh language, but so “teenager-ish” and disrespectfully when I did it the other night. Specifically, when I “commanded” his respect during our argument. It bugged me. A lot.

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  • Financial Power Transfer. Abuse at Its Best.

    Financial Power Transfer. Abuse at Its Best.

    Ever so often my abusive husband throws a hissy fit and takes over paying the bills. I don’t care WHO pays the bills, but it is always always a big fight.

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  • Hurting the Boy And Blaming Me

    Hurting the Boy And Blaming Me

    Then Will hit Eddie’s arm hard & said, “BOY go get in your OWN damn bed!” Eddie got up in the dark, made his way to the door quietly crying & left.

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  • What Is Real?

    What Is Real?

    How do people know when they’re being authentic? How do people overcome fear? How can I be sure the verbal abuse is real? Why is it so hard to believe?

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  • He Will Hurt Me, So I Stay? Makes No Sense. This is a Mind Fuck.

    He Will Hurt Me, So I Stay? Makes No Sense. This is a Mind Fuck.

    On the other hand, it is painful and hard for me to remember that he would, could and has hurt me physically – but it’s happened three times now. Nothing that will create a bruise where it will show. Something that he can deny to himself, to me, to anyone. Something that he ultimately blames…

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  • Bat Shit Crazy is Better Than Abused

    Bat Shit Crazy is Better Than Abused

    Will deployed to Iraq and I’m in our home in North Carolina with our boys. Will doesn’t call or write very often and it’s easy to pretend that I’m alone. I don’t particularly enjoy it when he does call because our conversations are all about the business of being married and the occasional sneak-attack to…

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  • Mere Woman

    He got SO MAD at me! He said that we didn’t have the fucking money for a tow truck and told me to go away. As I walked away with tears in my eyes, he yelled something about What the HELL do you think YOU could do anyway?!

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  • Abuse Described In The Bible Proverbs 6:16-19

    Abuse Described In The Bible Proverbs 6:16-19

    Proverbs 6:16-19: Looking inward to find the source of my pain I once again miss the forest for the trees. If I had once thought about my husband as I looked at the list of what God hates, maybe I could have realized he abused me sooner.

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  • Goals For Me Implanted Through Brainwashing

    Goals For Me Implanted Through Brainwashing

    By 1998, I didn’t even know what I wanted for me anymore. His goals for me became my goals for myself, inserted neat and clean in my mind with brainwashing.

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