During My Abusive Marriage
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Anonymity Compromised
My husband found my website and blog. I figured he already had found them, but I suppose he just wasn’t interested or didn’t make the connection between what he saw me doing at home and what was going online…or whatever. At first he was angry, but now he isn’t. At least, that’s what he says,
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Thinking About It
The idea to make a website documenting the verbal abuse and my reactions/thoughts relating to it came to me around the time I realized it was happening – about October or November of last year (2008). I never hid the fact that I was making a website about verbal abuse from my husband. In fact,
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Change Through Resistance Feels Like a Fight
Maybe it hurts because it’s supposed to hurt. He meant to hurt me. “Goodbye and good luck.” I think he meant to threaten me, too. The “good luck” part was not lovingly said, you know. On a high note, this could be the first time he’s ever wished me good luck in anything.
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I Just Don’t Trust Him
Maybe I’m being too cynical. Maybe he really does want to improve our communication; maybe he really does want to fix “our” problem. Maybe I really should just “get over” my trust issues and let him back into my heart and mind.
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Abuse Is a Web
Making verbalabusejournals.com is a healing process for me. Writing the pages, updating my entries (both past and present), sharing resources that have helped me…all of it serves to remind me that even now I struggle in the web of abuse. I sometimes feel like a butterfly re-cocooned in spidery fibers waiting to be the main
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On Hold For Military Investigation
Right now, we’re in the middle of a military investigation about domestic violence. It couldn’t have come at a worse time, but is the result of the report I made back in December 2008. Why did it take so long for the report to make it to the Army? I may have an answer for
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Top 8 Signs It’s Time To Leave Your Marriage
Journaling one day, I conversed with Big Me, the part of me that connects directly to God and can see the big picture. Here’s what came of it. I wrote: I wonder how long I’ll be able to go on with abuse at the forefront of my mind. At some point, it will truly exhaust
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Couples’ Counseling Does Not Help Abusive Relationships
I want him to take responsibility for our problems as he expects me to do & expects as much of himself as he expects of me. I want equality in our marriage. However, I tend to agree with Kera who commented, “His response to your marriage counseling hardly seemed like he’s going to become a…
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No Food
“I didn’t eat all day.” He said. “Why not?” I asked him. “Because no one told me there was any food ready.”
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