Recovery from Domestic Abuse
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I’m Not A Victim, Don’t Feel Like A Survivor
Victim or survivor? There has to be a different word for what I have experienced and what is to come. I don’t feel like repeating the word “victim” to myself or portraying myself as such. I am a “survivor” of abuse; however, the word survivor brings to my mind those who have been seriously and…
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Having Doubts About Getting a Divorce: It’s too Soon to Decide
But then there’s the big question: Am I on the path to divorce? Is there NO alternative? Am I going to get divorced in the same hasty manner I married? Did I throw out the brakes on this vehicle without realizing the road was headed downhill? I find myself wishing Will and I could talk.…
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My Transition Title from Victim to Survivor
I don’t know what I’m doing, I don’t know what I’m feeling. And when I think about what I’m thinking I feel afraid. There’s no good title for that kind of confusion. There’s no good title for this time in my life. I’m not married but I’m not single. I don’t want to be married,…
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I Don’t Feel Like Going Along Anymore
Yesterday I visited the Women’s Center that acts as this area’s Small Business Association. The Center offers two programs that fit me. One caters to displaced homemakers and the other help people wanting to start their own businesses. Under the displaced homemaker program, The Women’s Center will pay so I can attend some classes offered at one of…
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Codependency and My Darkness with an Apology at the End
I sent an email to his family revealing this blog. Accidentally. This post is now part of the book “My Abusive Marriage…and what happened when i left it.”
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He’s an Asshole, But Not Abusive? Is It Possible?
My husband admits to being an asshole, but doesn’t see how he’s abusive? Can you be one or the other or are you both?
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A Necessary Evil: Pain of Separating from Abuser
I saw Will today. He looks good. Softer. I caught him glance at me sidelong and I wondered what he was thinking. Will gave Marc a bag to put in the trunk of my car. It is going to stay there, unopened. Marc relayed that his dad didn’t have room for whatever is in the bag, and…
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Domestic Violence Hits Home: I Left Twice
Leaving my abusive marriage happened by surprise, but not unexpectedly. I knew I would leave, but I didn’t have it planned for when it happened.
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I Can’t Make Him Be Nice, So I Can’t Make Him Angry
I feel anxious tonight. I woke up anxious this morning. I could be anxious about this weekend in general. The boys are spending Saturday night with their father. I am anxious about things I cannot control and never could control – although I thought I had the power to control them. You see, once upon a time,…
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Potty Talk with God
I had a little conversation with God when I was on the commode today. God didn’t mind and was glad to hear from me. I asked God to take my worries and promised to be on the lookout for signs to guide me. The guy side of God invited me to put my worries on…
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