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Red Door Productions introduces #TheDayItStarted as a prompt for abuse victims to tell about their earliest memory of domestic abuse.

The Day It Started

Red on Black Productions writes “This short film was inspired by [the tweet hashtags] #whyIstayed and #whyIleft…” I believe the day it started for me occurred two weeks into the relationship with my ex-husband, Will. I suspected that I was pregnant and went to Will’s barracks to let him know. He held a Jack & […]

Anyone experiencing repeated traumas as with domestic abuse can be triggered unexpectedly. Even so, identifying triggers leads us to better mental health.

Triggered And Angry

Recently, conversing with my fiance triggered an abusive and detrimental reaction. I threw up an emotional barrier, yelled violently, cried and became unwilling to continue talking at all. To say my behavior threw him off guard is an understatement. Jarimie looked at me in confusion and did not yell. Suddenly I realized I was the one behaving […]

The effects of abuse last longer than I hoped. I am healing from it, but memories continue to assault my mind. I just want to be healed. Now.

Nothing on My Mind – Memories of Abuse

I’m doing it again. I’m losing my mind in match-3 computer games that let me ignore unpleasant thoughts. I tried believing that playing those games relaxes my brain and that matching colored balls on Bubble Witch qualifies as a healthy, mindful activity. In reality, the games help me keep nothing on my mind. In thinking’s absence,  I can avoid asking questions […]

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Feeling Ucky

Today has been a real downer. As a rule, I try very hard not to feel sorry for myself, but today, I am feeling sorry for me. And it sucks feeling this way. As usual, my mind is spinning in circles…is it me? Am I making mountains out of molehills? Being too analytical? Worrying about […]

Intuition played a huge part in my escape from abuse. Listening to it saved me from homelessness too.

Today Is Better Than Dreadful Thanks to Intuition

Sometimes, dreadfulness happens to mostly-good people; and sometimes, pleasantness happens to mostly-rotten people. Always, the situation changes and sometimes it changes for the worst. However, if you’re connecting to helpful people, then tomorrow changes for the better. Your intuition turns the key to knowing who will help and who will hurt. My intuition fell silent […]

Wake Up Call

It’s been a tough week. My older son was expelled from school for possession of marijuana (which he denies, of course). He’s out for 10 school days. After that, he can go to the “bad kids” school here in our county, or… The “or” is the option. The question is which “or” to take. I’m […]