During My Abusive Marriage
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Voices In My Head Can’t Agree on How I Should Behave
How do I be my own mother and father AND be a mom and dad for Marc and Eddie? There doesn’t seem to be enough time in the day. I don’t even know what I…
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Opals and Roses for 10th Anniversary – Rape 2 Nights Before
Gotta love those honeymoon periods. Or maybe I gotta love how desperate my brain is to protect me from the truth. Will raped me to regain power over me so I would agree that returning…
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No Choice In The Matter
Will decided to return to the Army. I had no choice. I can’t help but wonder if he chose this particular time to make this drastic move to disrupt my goal to complete my bachelor’s…
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Sexual Abuse is Sometimes the Nice Way to Say Rape
One more thing, I think Will DID know what he was doing. He was sweet right after, but said he didn’t want to feel this way again – what “way” was he talking about? He…
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Underlying Anger
I feel overwhelmed by anger more than guilt, but doesn’t guilt usually follow anger? Maybe…no, I don’t know. I don’t know why I’m so angry.
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You’re A Wife and Mom First
I cannot study when Will is here. He acts like a four-year-old, demanding my attention for, excuse me, stupid things. Watch this commercial, let me tell you a joke, where is the toilet paper, and…
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Staying In Abusive Marriage
I prayed for our marriage & believed staying in abusive marriages like mine was somehow God’s plan. I thought I was powerful enough to change my husband.
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Unburied One Baby That Represented Four
She is dead, not them. Those babies died, not my boys. Those babies are in heaven, not my boys. What now? How crazy am I? I’m not crazy. I’m mourning.
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Advice from My Guardian Angel
I meet my guardian angel, Pauline, and she has some choice words for me. Who knew angels had such strong opinions?
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I Feel Their Past Present Future
I remember spending time with Marc before Eddy came and wondering how I could ever love another child like I did my first. I thought there may be no more room. But that was a…