During My Abusive Marriage
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I'm not the only one
“How do I stop my partner’s emotional bullying from affecting me?” Read the answers at experienceproject.com – I didn’t find one that suited me. But this is what I would tell anyone who asked me…
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My Abusive Husband Wants His Wife, Not Me
Recently, my husband acknowledged that he’s seen this blog. He says he can read it if he pretends his wife doesn’t write it. He says that he wants to educate himself, that my blog and site “would be very…
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Fake Name True Story
I was off in thought today, considering what my husband, who says he reads this blog, thinks of it. At first he was really pissed off about it and asked me not to use his name or…
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Hunger Issues
Maybe seeing that I DO have control over things other than food is a feeling that I can trust. IF, in fact, I am regaining some control over myself and my life, then maybe I…
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Hungry Angry Lonely Tired = Out of Control
Al-Anon taught me that if I’m Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired, then I am more likely to screw up my emotional well-being. Of course, I was focused on alcoholism at the time, but I think…
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Comment Spam
I was looking through the spam comments caught by akismet and NOT sent to me to approve. There are 32 of them collected in the past 10 days or so. Suddenly I thought about my…
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You make me so MAD!!
I know that pausing to take control of my thoughts after he has said or done something “unbelievable,” “horrible,” or “unforgivable” may be extremely difficult. I’ve conditioned myself to skip over my own thoughts and…
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Dysfunctional Motivation
For now, I’m going to give myself a break. Yes, I know that the motivation is emotionally and mentally unhealthy. I’ve laid out reasons why I should NOT entertain the idea, and yet I haven’t…
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I KNEW He Cheated! I Just Don’t Care Anymore
I think I’m twisted, but for once, I don’t care. If twisted thinking gets me off my ass and away from convenience food, then I’ll use it for all its worth.
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I’m Home
I realized that the security I once felt there was imagined. The men I knew there were only parts of their whole. I never realized the things that went on when I wasn’t looking. My…