During My Abusive Marriage
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Practice Being Me
Dr. Barbara Becker Holstein said that “Behavioral patterns run deeper than love.” I understand completely what she means. Sometimes, during the heat of an argument with Will, the dialog running through my head was completely…
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6-years-old and growing
One part of my plan to end the abuse is in dismanteling his public persona. No, I’m not going to go around town diminishing him as a man or husband. I’m not going to bad-mouth…
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Happiness Makes Me Trust Him Too Much
It’s late, and I promised myself a more normal schedule, so I’m headed to bed. BUT I also promised myself I’d post daily, so I’m racking my brain for something worthwhile to write. Worthwhile to…
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What I Want
I write a lot about what I DON’T want. It’s probably more valuable to think about what I DO want. So, here goes: I want a fulfilling, meaningful life that adds positive, active energy to the world.
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Why I’m Staying In My Abusive Marriage
I will be doing a lot of work in the realm of codependency, as well as finding solutions to dealing with my husband’s abusive techniques. It takes two participants to play this sick game we’ve…
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I’m Staying
I made a monumental decision: I’m staying in my marriage.
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Waiting for a Hero
I’m feeling so shitty; I want to stop feeling. I want to stop thinking. I want to stop.
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My Buttons Get Pushed – But I Control My Reactions
I’m reading a book1 in which the authors identify three common ways people think when confronted with button-pushing people and an alternative, healthier way to think. In a prior post, I wrote about some stinking thinking before I knew what it…
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Leaving Abuse and Codependency: Smart Piggy
The little kid in me wants to shout, “It’s not fair!” and run away fast and hard. I want to put all the blame on HIM. I want HIM to be the big bad wolf…