During My Abusive Marriage
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Pressure Cooker
Yesterday afternoon, when talking to the Army social worker, I broke down, completely. I was beside myself, literally, at hearing some news she delivered. When she asked me if I felt in danger, I told…
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Distraction & Manipulation
My husband accused our son of drinking Jack Daniels, but wanted to do nothing about it. I sense an ulterior motive to distract me from his abuse of me.
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Mispoken
The first conversation about “us” we had involved him telling me that he had three priorities. He is a list maker. I expressed concern that by keeping items one and two separate in his mind, he may feel…
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Nothing Wrong With Me
Last night, Will blew up about my callousness in choosing my and the boys’ mental health and welfare over his career. He got ugly, but I stood up and said, “That’s it. I’m done with…
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Red Flags
So, last December, there was a domestic violence incident at my home. The Army got wind of it in February (early March?) after Will had deployed. So now that he’s back, he’s required to do…
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It’s Ba-ack: Anxiety and Verbal Abuse
Anxiety disorders are common side-effects of domestic abuse. If you feel like me, you could be developing anxiety yourself. Read this.
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Yesterday
I didn’t write yesterday because it was so crappy. I still don’t want to write because this morning already started off on a bad note. Or bang, perhaps. 7:30 AM, Sunday morning, I hear banging…
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Diverting My Attention: If I Think It’s ME I Won’t See It’s YOU
Diverting my attention from what he was doing by exploiting my vulnerabilities was par for the course. He expertly distracted me from emotional abuse, turning my suspicions that he was hurting me to the idea…
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Calm
No more arguing today, and it’s 7:30 pm. We did talk more today since my last post, so the “no more arguing” bit is significant. We talked about how he is concerned about my abuse…
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Treating Him Like a Science Project–Or a Lab Rat
Okay, I remember the advice. Science project (Observing But Not Participating In My Abuse). Calming down, not to go after it again though. I’m going to wait. And in the meantime, I’m going to write.…