Today: This entry amazes me. I wrote the truth. I drew the truth. My unconscious mind KNEW he abused me and I KNEW I walked a dark path. But I went down it anyway. I didn’t know anything about emotional abuse. I wish someone had told me when I was young.
From Journal Entry in 1992: “Maybe he just does it to hurt me. Maybe he just wants me to be scared of him for some reason. Afraid he’ll leave, afraid he’ll hit me again, afraid he’ll call me “whore” again. He wants me totally dependent on him for some reason – so he has control.”