Note from 2010: Sometimes all I could do when he raged was sit still and not say a word. I tried to learn how to NOT respond to Will’s verbal abuse and nasty behavior, but sitting there and taking it was a response. He liked it, I think.
I told myself that he was learning how to live without alcohol.
I don’t remember what was happening or what he was going on about when I wrote this simple sentence. All I know is that I really wanted to say this out loud to him.
This entry is one day out of the journal I kept while I was still in the marriage. The whole thing, in order, is the book: My Abusive Marriage . . . and what i’m doing in it. Or read the first pages if you want to see whether it’s for you.