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Detached from Abuse: This Is Me, That Is Him

There is no sure-fire way to guarantee my success; but there's also no way to guarantee my failure. Will hasn't believed in me in a very long time, but his insinuations no longer cause me to crawl into a hole and hide. Now, hearing him say what he says causes me to divert my attention from him and pay attention to the light in my own heart.

There is no sure-fire way to guarantee my success; but there's also no way to guarantee my failure. Will hasn't believed in me in a very long time, but his insinuations no longer cause me to crawl into a hole and hide. Now, hearing him say what he says causes me to divert my attention from him and pay attention to the light in my own heart.I am not naive enough to think this will be easy. It would be nice if some great hand would reach down from the sky to snatch a long-lost relative who left me (and my sister, mother, and grandmas) millions. But as much fun as it is to consider that inane possibility, I do not lose myself in it.

This isn’t going to be easy. There is no sure-fire way to guarantee my success, but there’s also no way to guarantee my failure. Will hasn’t believed in me in a very long time, but his insinuations no longer cause me to crawl into a hole and hide. Now, hearing him say what he says causes me to divert my attention from him and pay attention to the light in my own heart.

It feels … strange. And good.

The most I can do is simply START moving away from him.

I’m doing that. I’m not revealing my actions yet because they’re not his business; I don’t feel like giving him my secrets anymore. Unfortunately, that means that I cannot give my secrets to YOU either.

Yes, I am slightly worried and a tad fearful. Who wouldn’t be? But I know I will make this work. I have a plan.


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