What Is Real?

How do people know when they're being authentic? How do people overcome fear? I've lived on faith for years - faith that he'll come around, understand or be nice to me. I believe I've been lying to myself for 17 years. How can I be sure this whole verbal abuse "thing" is real?  Is my gut feeling wrong?

I’m growing a fear of writing daily – what if what I write isn’t good enough? What if what I write doesn’t “prove” I’m being verbally abused? What if “they” don’t believe me?

Or God forbid, what if I fall into weakness and start “making things worse than they are” as I’ve been accused of? What if my writing is the only thing that convinces me that I’m abused verbally? What if I’ve made it all up through faulty reasoning? Faulty feeling? Faulty something?

What if the readers of my site find out that I think I may be full of shit? Am I full of it?

Am I making things up? Am I involved in a “plan to get [my] own way”? Uggh.

How do people know when they’re being authentic? How do people overcome fear? I’ve lived on faith for years – faith that he’ll come around, understand or be nice to me. I believe I’ve been lying to myself for 17 years. How can I be sure this whole verbal abuse “thing” is real?

Is my gut feeling wrong?
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About Kellie Jo Holly

Kellie Jo Holly passionately advocates against domestic violence through her writing and mentoring service. She loves helping women cope with abuse while in the relationship and supporting them as they leave the relationship and begin to heal. You can also find Kellie on Google+, Facebook and Twitter. You can buy her books from Amazon.

Comments

  1. I often experience that as well. I feel that people won’t believe and doubt myself, my sanity, my reasons, my objectivity. My answer to the problem is to always keep in mind that I am sincere and not trying to manipulate anyone. That’s the best I can do for now.

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