I wish I knew how to explain all of this without sounding like a crybaby or that I’m blaming my abuser for everything. I really wish I could come across as someone who knew exactly what she was doing and knew exactly what she was talking about and had the answers for everything…not that I…
This is how it feels to live with a verbal abuser. Nothing I say or do is of my own choosing. He assigns motives to me…some good and some bad depending on his mood, and tomorrow, he could change his mind. Nothing I say or do is said or done for the reasons I give.…
This declaration of freedom from abuse states my boundaries. I’ll use the word “you” because I am unwilling to put up with verbal abuse from anyone anymore.
Confusion and depression are hallmarks of abusive relationships. For the victim anyway – the abuser knows what they are trying to do. They want to weaken.

Her mouth is half-blocked like her voice is slipping away, she’s sacrificing herself on a cross, there are vortexes sucking the little woman away, watery graves, naked and unprotected caught in a silent scream … I drew this image and still didn’t consciously realize I was stepping into an abusive relationship.
