Don’t Worry
Understandably, I’m sure, I am not going to share the details of what is transpiring right now. There are things that are not safe to say to anyone besides the parties involved.
Tomorrow, after a much needed sleep, I will continue to report on how I’m feeling and as much as possible, what I am doing.
What I am doing right now is acting on my emergency plan. It kicked into effect when the cops were called the other night, and it is continuing as I write.
But for those of you who are worried for me, I want you to know that for now, I am fine.
Each minute is different. During the horrible ones, I hold on, knowing that the next minutes will not be so terrible. The hardest part is honoring the anxiety I have without letting it overcome me.
I am very worried that he will break his no-contact orders. Of course, everyone out here I know because of Will. They all say that they do not think he’ll do anything, that it is okay to relax.
With all due respect, how would they know?
If they knew my husband so well, then why didn’t they see this coming (again)? They tell me “not to worry” because they do not want to further upset what they thought was true about my husband. They will be happier when they see HIM smile, hear HIM say the “right thing” (which he will) so they can believe the worst of me instead of change their perceptions of him.
What does one say at the death of a relationship? I suggest that no one ever say, “Don’t worry.”
How dare they tell me not to worry when I am the only person in the world whom my husband will throw around like a rag doll and call a whore, a traitor, and a million other nasty things. Did he ever call YOU those names? Did he ever put his hands on YOU in an attempt to control and scare you?
I doubt it. You don’t know him like I do, so please stop trying to make me pretend that I know him like YOU do.
Please, don’t tell me not to worry.
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January 25th, 2010 at 8:48 AM
I am so sad for you. Your tenacity and bravery are amazing. How are the kids holding up?
Do you have someone there for you now? Do you have support?
I am thinking of you always. I am praying, wishing, hoping, demanding God DO something!
I am here.
January 25th, 2010 at 10:13 AM
Believe me, I AM WORRIED. The thought of how angry he undoubtedly became over the past few days has me sitting on pins and needles. He has ALWAYS pulled the wool over everybody else’s eyes. They have NO CLUE what he is really like – when nobody else is around. They only know the side of him that will do anything for them, say the nicest things to them, joke with them, and be seen as such a nice southern guy…
They don’t have a clue that he is bamboozeling them right into the thought pattern that he wants them to believe. They don’t realize that he is playing them. They don’t realize that he is making sure they “fall in line”. They don’t realize AT ALL what he is like behind closed doors.
To all of you out there that tells Kellie, “Don’t Worry.”… You have NO IDEA what it is really like to live with him. I have seen first hand what he does and how he treats his family. He has not showed this to anybody else outside of their immediate family but me (that I am aware of).
It really irritates me that not only does my sister have to go through the pain, physical hurt, and anxiety she is going through right now – but on top of that she has to deal with people who think they know him so well telling her that all will be okay.
I am here to tell you…
YOU DON’T HAVE A CLUE. Please open your eyes before something ELSE happens. I beg of you. My sister’s life may depend on it.
January 25th, 2010 at 12:01 PM
I am worried too. And thinking of you. Keep writing.