Comments on: I’m Home http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/2009/07/11/home/ ...and what I'm doing in it Sat, 12 May 2012 04:16:57 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v= By: Me http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/2009/07/11/home/comment-page-1/#comment-279 Me Sun, 12 Jul 2009 13:16:08 +0000 http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/?p=588#comment-279 Refresh, YES! Rest, no. But that's okay. I needed a safe place to shed some of my layers of protection, layers of lies designed to protect myself from the truth. I think that's what all the crying was about. My home IS still safe, even if it isn't all I imagined it would be. I am very, very fortunate to have a safe place; I am looking forward to creating a safe place within and around myself. I'm NOT looking forward to the work it will take to create it! ;) Refresh, YES! Rest, no. But that’s okay. I needed a safe place to shed some of my layers of protection, layers of lies designed to protect myself from the truth. I think that’s what all the crying was about. My home IS still safe, even if it isn’t all I imagined it would be. I am very, very fortunate to have a safe place; I am looking forward to creating a safe place within and around myself. I’m NOT looking forward to the work it will take to create it! ;)

]]> By: Me http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/2009/07/11/home/comment-page-1/#comment-278 Me Sun, 12 Jul 2009 13:11:49 +0000 http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/?p=588#comment-278 "You can never go home again." Sad, true, poetic,... I finally understand what it means. I've been "home" often since leaving for the Army in 1991, but this time was different. It could be that I finally understand what the saying means because I'm willfully pulling off my blinders to reality. It's funny how powerfully the mind protects us from pain. I don't remember consciously asking for a pair of blinders, but the subconscious thought "This can't be happening! I won't see it!" created blinders for me anyway. “You can never go home again.” Sad, true, poetic,… I finally understand what it means. I’ve been “home” often since leaving for the Army in 1991, but this time was different. It could be that I finally understand what the saying means because I’m willfully pulling off my blinders to reality.

It’s funny how powerfully the mind protects us from pain. I don’t remember consciously asking for a pair of blinders, but the subconscious thought “This can’t be happening! I won’t see it!” created blinders for me anyway.

]]> By: Randomly K http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/2009/07/11/home/comment-page-1/#comment-273 Randomly K Sun, 12 Jul 2009 00:38:07 +0000 http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/?p=588#comment-273 Glad to hear you took some time away. Missing the home from your memories...that's always tough. Glad to hear you took some time away. Missing the home from your memories…that’s always tough.

]]> By: Martha Trowbridge http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/2009/07/11/home/comment-page-1/#comment-270 Martha Trowbridge Sat, 11 Jul 2009 19:35:13 +0000 http://verbalabusejournals.com/verbal-abuse-marriage/?p=588#comment-270 Welcome back, Kellie! Hope you managed to rest and refresh. Welcome back, Kellie! Hope you managed to rest and refresh.

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