My Abusive Experience
I started reading my old journals to convince myself that I was NOT being abused. It didn't work. One journal entry after another showed evidence of my abusive marriage. I share them with you because recognizing abuse is the first step to freeing yourself from it. You'll probably see that your abusive relationship has a lot in common with mine.
Jump to Year: 1993 | 1994 | 1995 | 1996 | 1997 | 1998 | 1999 | 2000 | 2001 | 2002 | 2003 | 2004 | 2005 | 2006 | 2007 | 2008 | 2009 |
1992
- October 14 - Less Than I Am
- October 18 - Sex Hasn't Been So Good Lately
1993
- January 8 - Skipping Work
- January 14 - Pregnant & Worried
- January 17 - Color Experiment
- January 24 - Moody
- February 23 - Sick
- March 28 - Normal Shit
1994
- August 6 - Who Knows...
1995
- April 10 - Rough Adjustment
- August 2 - Great-Grandma's Spirit Visits
1996
- February 21 - Detachment
- May 5 - I Hate You
- No Date - House of Light
1997
- September 29 - Proud of Them
1998
- January 2 - My Brain is Bouncing
- January 9 - Saying Something Stupid
- January 18 - I Have to Have Some Peace
- January 26 - Step 4: Moral Inventory
- February 11 - Don't Know How
- February 13 - Dachau
- February 15 - Valentine's Day
- March 31 - When I Accept the Responsibility
- April 1 - Devil's Goals
- April 25 - God's Time
- April 26 - Why I Fear
- July 6 - Remember the Rape?
- July 7 - The Rape
- July 7 - Couldn't Tell
- July 7 - Was It Rape?
- July 9 - I Felt Raped
- August 2 - An Angel Speaks Of Money
- August 6 - What God Loves
- August 8 - I Will Always Be Hopeful
- August 10 - Pass Temptations
- August 13 - Spoil Sport
- August 15 - Mere Woman
- August 17 - Mistakes and Worry
- December 22 - I Wouldn't Sleep
- December 23 - Miscarriage
1999
- January 5 - Follow Him
- April 7 - Better Armed
- May 10 - Rotten Mood & an Angel Message
- May 15 - Scribbles
- August 10 - First Day of School
- August 11 - My Introduction to Pauline
- November 18 - Unburied One Baby
2000
- August 31 - Prayer is the Same
- September 5 - Don't Restate Thinking He Didn't Understand
- October 8 - Do Do Do
2001
- March 19 - God Wouldn't
- March 31 - Working on Myself
- April 1 - Haunted By a Memory
- April 2 - Perfect At Everything
- April 3 - Choices
- April 4 - That Smart
- April 6 - 15 Minutes
- April 8 - Sex Was Bad
- April 11 - Opals and Roses
- April 15 - The Army Thing
- April 18 - FLYing
- April 21 - I Yell Too Much
- April 23 - No Pants
2002
- Late Summer - Conversation With Depression
2003
- March 19 - Wish Wash
2004
- December 1 - I Forget to Breathe
2005
- November 5 - Tarot Fears
- December 6 - That's A Lot of Power
- December 10 - So Badly
- December 12 - Failure is a Success
- December 13 - Hold Back
- December 16 - Causing Drama
- December 17 - Dear Successful Person
2006
- May 15 - Not Depressed
2007
- March 29 - Self-Discipline
- July 6 - Geesh! My Back is Fat
- September 16 - It's All You
2008
- August 19 - Knot Spinning
- October 4 - Tilly
- October 7 - Anxiety Rising
- October 26 - Do They Get It?
- October 31 - Trick or Treat?
- October 31 - Miss Helen
- November 1 - Apology
- November 3 - Codependency
- November 3 - Floating
- November 3 - What Do You Want From Him?
- November 8 - Good Advice and A Panic Attack
- November 9 - What's Real?
- November 10 - Gnawing Hurt
- November 11 - Boundaries
- November 12 - Never Change
- November 13 - What is Change?
- November 14 - Nothing For Me Here
- November 14 - I Hid the Guns
- November 15 - Declaration of Freedom from Verbal Abuse
- November 16 - Do It My Way
- November 16 - Nice Again
- November 18 - He Found the Guns
- November 18 - CARE Appointment
- November 19 - Jabbing Will
- November 19 - Long and Painful
- November 21 - You People
- November 22 - 3 Things
- November 22 - A Miracle is What You Deserve
- November 22 - Who's Warped?
- November 23 - Power Transfer
- November 26 - Unless I Change
- November 30 - Threatening Behavior
- December 3 - I Respect Him Less
- December 5 - I Am Trying to Protect You
- December 5 - Prediction
- December 5 - Half Dead Mouse
- December 15 - Don't Remember, Compliment
- December 18 - Slap, Push, Left
- December 23 - PTSD
2009
- January 13 - CARE Appointment 3
- January 14 - Money for a Calendar
- January 15 - Mountainous Molehills
- January 16 - College
- January 17 - Pot in the Laundry
- January 19 - Rape Secret
- January 22 - Nice Guy
- January 22 - Memoir of Basic Training
- January 22 - Food
- Early February - Unfinished Note
- March 4 - Mind Fuck
- March 28 - 10 Rules to Live By
- March 31 - Goodbye & Good Luck
- March 31 - Gateways
- May 18 - Look Back
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