Conversation With Depression
Summer 2002
This left hand/right hand exercise comes from "Drawing as a Sacred Activity: Simple Steps to Explore Your Feelings and Heal Your Consciousness"
This journal entry comes from a 6-month time apart from Will as he re-joined and re-trained for the Army. We needed to sell our house in Texas, so the boys and I moved in with my grandmother in Indiana.
Left Hand:
I fill you.
I drain you.
I bubble up.
My energy steals from you.
I have infiltrated,
but I want OUT.
Release me every day, but fill my place with love.
Open your mouth. Ask for Him to help you. Sing a song of yourself to Will - your mom...
Open your shame for others to see. I am shame of not being all you could be. Take a risk.
Right Hand:
You are here because I don't know how to let you go.
How do I let you out? I can't possibly hold more until you are gone.
You squelch me.
You ooze through me.
I feel you there.
Crying doesn't let you out. What will? How do I find out what I want to be?
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