My Signs I Was Being Abused
Other people told me.
My Emotional Signs of Abuse
Self-hatred, Fear, Broken
My Story of Abuse
I took care of my mom, but she had just died. Then I met a man.
I’m having a hard time because I feel its my fault, not his.
Anyway I got pregnant. He said he never wanted me and that he loved someone else. He threw a hammer at the wall.
I never drank before him. I have a drinking issue now.
I cried in corners for hours telling him I wanted to kill myself. He told me I should and how horrible I was.
He hit me. Cut my mouth open. He said it was a reflex.
He tried to put a restraining order against me having my daughter, but he had no rights. He tried to have me committed.
I have left fifteen times in six years. I am with him but don’t live with him. I talk to him everyday. I don’t know how to function without his voice.
In the last few years, he’s declared his love for me. I begged for that for years. Why? Because if he didn’t love me or want me then I don’t want me either.
I’m 38. He’s 52. I hope I help someone not be me.