Will deployed to Iraq and I’m in our new home in North Carolina with our boys. Will doesn’t call or write very often and it’s easy to pretend that I’m alone. I don’t particularly enjoy it when he does call because our conversations are all about the business of being married and the occasional sneak-attack to tell me I’m ruining his children.
The symptoms I’m having turn out to be mostly the result of sinusitis. However, because we’re supposed to “handle things on our own”, I haven’t gone for a checkup. With my history it’s easier to believe I am going crazy and not think to visit a doctor. We’re strong little soldiers.
When he returns in a few months, I will go to the doctor and find that my sinuses have clogged with mucus nearly to my brain. The doctor says I could have developed a brain infection and died if I had avoided her much longer.
Abuse works its way into everything we do and say, and influences our decisions insidiously. Physical, mental, emotional symptoms play out as depression, anxiety, fibromyalgia, and apparently, sinusitis and more.
Read My Abusive Marriage…and what i’m doing in it…you’ll think I married your husband.