I feel sad that I didn’t write about the events leading up to this entry. I just glossed over them. I think I knew I’d have to forget them if our relationship was going to work.
- We rarely celebrated our anniversary. There would be no “date” this night.
- He cheated on me when he was deployed to Cuba. I know in my gut he did. Plus, he told my brother-in-law, “I hit that” while pointing to the girl I suspected.
- He stopped drinking after I told him, “Choose. Father and husband, or the alcohol.” I truly thought he’d tell me to hit the road, and I was disappointed when he didn’t.
- So, I felt I must forgive him for all he did to have a fresh start.
I removed most of this post because it is part of my book, My Abusive Marriage and what i’m doing in it.