I started reading my old journals to convince myself that I was NOT being abused. It didn’t work. One journal entry after another showed evidence of my abusive marriage. I share them with you because recognizing abuse is the first step to freeing yourself from it.
My story of abuse is both typical and unique. It’s typical because every abuse victim experiences the same control tactics. It’s unique because I am unique (as all of us are) and my abuser designed the words he used against me to push my buttons, no one else’s. You’ll see that your abusive relationship has a lot in common with mine. You’ll recognize the abuse and do something about it way before I did. Eighteen years are a long time to live with oppression. If you read my story, you’ll think I married your husband.
How My Story Will Help You
If you experience abuse in your relationship, you need to know that you are not alone in your pain. I wrote out my story in journals, as it happened, and transferred those stories to my blog and this website, not knowing that thousands of women hungered to know if they were going crazy. They read my account and found so many similarities that they could no longer justify trying to “fix” themselves when the real solution involved protecting themselves from further damage.
My story helped people see that the one at fault for the abuse was the abuser and no one else. You can’t love an abuser out of abusing. You can’t reason with them. You can’t fix something that the abuser will not acknowledge to be broken and you can’t fix someone else anyway.
If you are the victim of abuse, my story of abuse will help you cross the line between accepting the abuse and doing something to help yourself. If you know someone who is abused, my story will help you understand the extreme obstacles blocking your friend’s ability to “do something” about her situation. No matter who you are, my story of abuse will set new thoughts in motion and that is the first step to ending the abuse for you or for someone you love.
Take advantage of the free stories of abuse on this site. If you want something to hold in your hands, to highlight and write notes upon, then buy my book, My Abusive Marriage…and what i’m doing in it.
Journal Entries from My Story of Abuse
- About Kellie Jo Holly
- 1992 – 1997
- 1999 – 2001
- Spiraling Downward
- No More Children
- You Hate Men!
- Do As I Say
- I Feel Their Past Present Future
- Advice from My Guardian Angel
- Unburied One Baby
- Staying In Abusive Marriage
- Angel Teaches Personal Boundaries
- Noisy Mind
- You’re A Wife and Mom First
- Underlying Anger
- Sexual Punishment
- No Choice In The Matter
- Opals And Roses
- Boys and Me
- 2002 – 2007