If you are afraid, there is a reason. Explore it before you’re in imminent danger. Even if your abuser has never laid a hand on you, if your intuition tells you something is going to happen, trust yourself.
I’ve found two books that said that the best indicator of future domestic violence is the victim’s sense of impending danger – not the abuser’s past behavior. Never ever ever ignore your gut. “Unlike worry, [intuition] will not waste your time,” says Gavin DeBecker.
The Gift of Fear” by Gavin DeBecker is an excellent book to read if you want to regain a sense of trust in yourself by honoring your intuition.